They got me all ready and rolled me in the room where a man (the anesthesiologist) was standing waiting for me and the doctors. I was sitting in the chair waiting for them to tell me where to go, shaking still when in my mind all I remembered the sermon from church about how we rely and trust people we don't know with our lives. Like we walk on a plane and trust the pilot has all the hours and training needed to fly you where you are going correctly. Same thing with doctors and anesthesiologists to put us under and do surgeries with our trusting them to have all the training and schooling they need to do their job correctly. So, needless to say, out of all the shaking I asked him "So, how long have you been doing this?" He says a big number (I don't remember what it was) and then I asked "Where did you go to school?" He proceeds to say "I'm from here, so I went to (a school in SA that I can't remember, then he said his college and his place of the school he got his Dr at)". I am asked to step on a stool and sit down curled over. The nurse who helped me thus far (who I really liked) holds my shoulders and starts talking softly to me, "it will be ok, just relax. Just relax, breath in breath out." (over and over) He (the ane guy) tells me that he is just touching me or I'll feel what feels like a pinch and then sticks me with a needle and then says it will feel like a sting and then it did. It wasn't that bad, needless to say. M'Rhea was right, the IV hurt WAY worse than this did!! I'm still shaking through all this! I am told to lay down and the doctors will be in and that I will have my baby before I know it.
Here's the good part! (Well, funny from the outsiders perspective):
I lay down on what feels like the size of a balance beam or a plank of wood. Seriously it was small. Then I have a board that runs across the top for my arms to lay straight across on. I feel something like a strap run across my legs like they are strapping me down. They proceed to put a sheet thing up that goes pretty high (like Chase's height) so I can't see what is going on. I'm still shaking now More than Ever!! I thought I was going through convulsions or having seizures still. I honestly was not concerned anymore about the surgery part as I was trying to make the shaking stop. I was afraid that the shaking would cause the doctors to cut in a jagged line and I would have scarring or my scar would end up looking like a jack-o-lantern. Up and Down Up and Down! Chase is in the room by the time I lay down on the plank and he is trying to talk to me. I have absolutely no idea what he said or was talking about and the "ane" guy was sitting behind me talking nonsense also. I remember before they cut he asked if I could feel wet/cold running up my leg or on my side in places he was putting a cotton swab on. He did that to make sure the epi was working. It was! I felt the doctors on one side and I'm still shaking and then when I felt them on the other side I knew it was close. Then they said "Dad do you want to see your baby?" Chase stands up quickly, I tell him take pictures-take pictures and all I hear in the midst of me shaking even more now, is crying out of nowhere from the other side of the curtain. It was for real. I just seriously had a baby and she was living inside me this whole time!! What a miracle from God and a blessing that he gave life and I get to be her mom! I remember looking at Chase and even though through shaking convulsions and him wearing a mask I knew he was smiling.
I asked "does she have dimples, does she have hair, who does she look like, how much does she weigh?" Not all at once but over a few minutes while they cleaned her up and sewed me up. They rolled the weighing machine to where I could see and they weighed and measured her. I asked "how much does she weigh?" They said "5 lbs 10 oz" I said "no way!" The doctor asked "how much did you think she weighed?" I said "I thought she was atleast 9!!"Then they measured how long she was and they said "ok, she's 17.5 inches long" I said "No Way!!" They asked again, how much did you think it was? I said "She felt Atleast 25!" They laughed. After they cleaned her up they gave her to Chase and I got to watch. Once they were done sewing, they placed me on an Actual bed and that's when they gave her to me to hold. I was shaking still and felt bad because she looked like a bobble doll with her head bouncing from me shaking. I was in the "recovery room" and that's when M'Rhea came to meet her. She made sure I was ok and when it was time for me to move upstairs to the room where I would stay for the next few days she left to go back home to sleep! I am Blessed to have such a Wonderful friend like her to be there for me and stay for that long!! I will never forget her kindness and I cherish her friendship. Even better- Hallie shares her birthday with M'Rhea!!
Once morning came, my mom left to and so did my dad. Jason (one of our friends from College Station) happen to be coming to San Antonio so he came by to visit. We came to his children's birth so it was now his time. Chase's parents and little sister were going to come the following day and then my brother Mark and his wife Kacy came on Friday. We were released from the hospital on Friday at 5 pm.
My Mom (still deciding on a name)
My dad- "Pappadeaux"
Jason
M'Rhea and Jason
Chase's Step-dad John- "PawPaw"
Chase's Mom- "Nana"
Chase's little sister Jaiden
My brother Mark and his wife Kacy
WOW!!! What a day and week. I would never have expected it to be like this and in my wildest dreams expect to have a baby who decides to come earlier than the day she was scheduled for (which was a week early). I am so blessed and I am LOVING every minute of this whole Mom thing!!!!!
Thanks for ALL the prayers, thoughts, words of wisdom and friendships!
... Now on to the fun blogging about mommy-hood. :)